God Has A Plan

This week has been a lot of pondering and studying. The question that has been on my mind ever since I got out here came to a conclusion. That question was what am I willing to give up for this work. For awhile I thought I could totally do the work and be committed. Well that hasn't been easy as always. True, that I have had success. But there was one thing that was holding me back. But every time I ask Heavenly Father how I can improve, every time I'm on my knees begging for guidance, this issue has come to mind. So last week I literally felt a prompting of what to do.  I know that Heavenly Father hears my prayers and He loves me. He has a better plan for all of us. And for me to truly show him and in a way Pay Him back was through giving up Everything. Literally sacrificing my "life" for the space of two years. I know that His Hands are in this work. I testify of His love for each of us.

The area is picking up-ish. I mean we have 3 new investigators but I feel since I have lost 10 lbs I can move and work faster. Here's a thing we have with this girl Misti. I don't think she cares much for the Gospel. Matter of fact she doesn't even want to read the Book of Mormon but she doesn't mind us teaching her stuff. I have a feeling that she just likes us. That she actually likes me. Yesterday we had Sis. Pulham and Misti at the fireside "Why I believe" and as they were leaving I shook everyone's hand and when I got to her; I shook her hand and said "Thanks for coming!" but it was a split second awkward moment...she didn't let go of my hand. It could just be me. but boy I feel, hmm what's the word? Violated! 

Anyway we're working a lot on door knocking and my companion needs to see a psychologist because of it... I think? Well he was really depressed to the point where he's suicidal. It scared the crap out of me. I thought I messed up that bad. Anyway we're still moving forward! and doing what we can. This area is ready to be flooded but we just gotta find a way to open that gate of Baptism! That's all I got for you guys! 

Love, 
Elder Uthaichai